May 4, 2023

I am the one who is trying to crack open the rage within me to help it find its way out of my body. The fire within me is intense, it’s hot, it hurts me and it’s still protected by the one who would rather fake a smile at my expense to spare another’s pain or rejection. Sometimes it feels like my head will explode from not expressing myself fully. The part of me that is all heart diminishes the effect by minimizing the true resentment and says, “it’s not that bad”. It also shows me my heart space can sooth me even when I’m too scared to speak up and if/when I get the courage to say, “no thanks.” instead. “NO” is a full sentence. When no’s happen, the yes’s inside my soul settle and shine.

I want you to know that little by little the stored rage will soften as you set boundaries that align with your truth. You’ll no longer hide behind a fake smile.