May 27 2023

I am the one who needs to hide from attention. I am the one who feels too exposed when eyes are on me. I feel overwhelming self-consciousness that can easily turn to shame. I’m not sure why but need it to stop, to push it away, to disappear into a cocoon that creates a barrior. This sense of overwhelm is too much for my highly sensitive system. Anger creeps in as I feel like I need to fight back, yet at first glimpse of my own rage, I am the one who needs to stuff it right back down and freeze this emotion too since I’m a “good girl”.