August 16, 2023

I am the one who wants so badly to break free—tangled in a sea of over-working, over-trying, over-doing, yet still stuck and defeated. I am the one who will do almost anything to make things happen yet after a while, how diligent, persistent and committed can one be with no significant outcome, no shift—sinking in quicksand.

I am the one who would rather crawl back in my box and disappear, hiding from the world and myself to make my failures and shame go away.

I am the one who watches time tick by while others all around me move with ease as they climb mountains.

I am the one who wonders, why not me? I have what it takes but why is it so hard for me to get to the top of my mountain? How can I not ask, what am I doing wrong? What’s wrong with me?

I want you to know there may be a higher purpose you’re just not aware of yet. Maybe something magically aligned awaits you. There is no logical reason you haven’t gotten to where you’d like to be and it’s certainly not for lack of trying or ability.

Keep a gentle pace filled with self-compassion, acceptance and belief as you continue to move forward with exploration and curiosity.

It’s really not your fault. You’re not to blame. You’re doing everything right.