October 20, 2024
Committee Suit: The Critic
I am the the one who
October 19, 2024
Committee Suit:
I am the the one who stays in my lane.
Playing small and containing much of my truth.
There is something safe in this place.
Protecting my insides from too much turmoil and chaos.
I am the one who knows its easiest to stay out of it, stay silent, be still.
I am the one who can still function well with frozen insides.
The bird knows what’s truly there though.
I am the one who knows this is best sometimes.
October 13, 2024
Committee Suit: The Warrior
I am the the one who says no to the critic.
I am the one who is a warrior through and through, no longer willing to tolerate the harsh voice and assaults on my very being.
I am the one who sees you and hears you. I have often been scared of your rhetoric and have believed your sabotaging and shaming ways.
I know you were very young when you learned how to protect me with this insidious verbal abuse and I know we’re going to find a new way together.
Now that I feel my power and also am getting to know you better, I see you’re able to let down your guard so I can take over now.
I am the one who no longer tolerates this viscous abuse.
October 5, 2024
Committee Suit: The Missing Piece
I am the the one who is seeking to find the missing puzzle piece of my life.
I am the innocent one who prays for the love, care and nurturing only a mother can give.
I am the young one who is still yearning for this deep connection and love that helps me know I’m OK exactly as I am with all my flaws and imperfections.
I want you to know you are already OK. Once you learn to trust and believe in yourself you’ll have everything you need. I know it’s sad and tragic you never received the mothers love you deserved.
You are still a precious gift and you are never alone.
October 1, 2024
Committee Suit: Inner Critic
I am the the one who keeps you in your place.
I make sure I criticize you so you don’t ever think you’re OK.
It’s my job to be stern and make you feel like you’re never good enough, pretty enough, or can never get anything right.
If you ever live big and think you’re doing great, then you’ll never have the love you crave. With my help, you won’t have to work hard to earn it.
You can’t be better than her. You can’t be too beautiful, too talented, too secure or too successful, because if she thinks you’re taking her spotlight away—you know what happens.
Jealousy, diminishing insults, distance and sometimes even the silent treatment.
You need to stay small, be a little fearful, and let me take over to keep you safe. This is what works for conditional love.